I started ECT the Monday before yesterday. I have to get up and out the door by 430 am. It takes them about an hour to give everyone an IV, put the electrode things on them, etc. Then they go one by one and zap us. The machine makes a weird, fast beeping sound when … Continue reading ECT is Killing Me
Martyrdom
Do you have the strength of the martyrs? If faced with the choice between denying Christ or a painful death, which would you choose? I admit I'm terrified of pain, and being burned alive is my worse nightmare, followed by being eaten in the arena. But I would like to think I have the strength … Continue reading Martyrdom
Husband, ECT, Friend
My husband is home again for a few weeks. It's so good to have him back! This week, I should find out whether I have been accepted for ECT. It could go either way. My ekg was great, but my blood work wasn't. I don't know how my chest x ray went. Tomorrow is the … Continue reading Husband, ECT, Friend
Big Cat Diaries, Wolves, and Homelessness
I found Big Cat Diary on Amazon Prime and confess I bought it. I loved that show back when my husband and I met, and I watched much of it with him. It's a super big nature documentary. What's not to love? I read a fascinating book this week about wolves. I really love wolves. … Continue reading Big Cat Diaries, Wolves, and Homelessness
Half My Mother’s Face Swelled Up at Disney World
Describe your most memorable vacation. It was on the only vacation we took in my childhood. We were visiting Disney World and Sea World. One night, something bit my mother's face. Half her face swelled up. The first day she wouldn't even go out. It looked so bad. At the time I felt bad for … Continue reading Half My Mother’s Face Swelled Up at Disney World
Painting for Sale By Young Artist
Below are two paintings done by my daughter, Angelica. You can buy these masterpieces and make a young artist's day for 20 dollars. Email me!
ECT or TMS
I have a consultation next week for ECT. Yes, that ECT. Electroconvulsive therapy. I hate that it has come to this, but after the disaster in Panama I need to come to terms with the fact I'm not a functional person. So much of my living is impaired by mental illness. The reason I'm still … Continue reading ECT or TMS
SciFi Dream Girl
What’s your favorite thing about yourself? I use intellect rather than emotion. The foundation of my faith is intellectual belief, not loving or feeling loved by God. Loving God or reminding myself He loves me is a good thing to remember to do from time to time, but it isn't my focus. I value truth … Continue reading SciFi Dream Girl
Agoraphobia?
I'm back at home now after a terrible trip to Panama. I was on the phone with my health coach today, and she suggested that my experience sounded like agoraphobia. My reactions to cities and other busy places aren't normal. I feel worn out and defeated. The life of travel I dreamed of won't happen. … Continue reading Agoraphobia?
Trans Women Are Men
I made a post on Instagram saying that, and it got deleted as hate speech that incites violence. Evidently saying that having a dick precludes you from being a woman is hate speech now, and saying you won't play along is akin to violence. So I'll say it here. Trans women are men. And to … Continue reading Trans Women Are Men
Life at Home 