I'm easing back into life today, though my soul is still aching and I'm tired. But life carries on. Luckily I don't have to cook today because we have leftovers of the vegetarian butter chicken my husband made over the weekend. I'm running some bedding in the wash. I may paint. I know I will … Continue reading Taking It Easy
Recovering
I still feel a deep hurt. OCIA starts soon. I scheduled confession for Tuesday. My kind husband is trying to cheer me up. I have to remember maybe next time dc will be better, because my husband has to go back at some point whether it breaks me or not. I am already suffering from … Continue reading Recovering
Offering Up My Suffering
Last night was difficult for me. I was on the edge of taking my life. I took too many pills. I need to offer up my suffering to God. I don't know how. My life is so beautiful. I know that. But the pain gets so strong that it rips me apart. And when C … Continue reading Offering Up My Suffering
A Relaxing Weekend
Saturday we went to my favorite restaurant on the island to celebrate my Confirmation. We then went to the beach to take pictures. I'll post those tomorrow. Today we relaxed. OCIA was canceled (it runs through the end of Easter). We got pizza and hung out. A and I watched Say Yes to the Dress … Continue reading A Relaxing Weekend
An Idea
Is anyone doing interesting play with typography in poems? By which I mean using typography as a tool to create a visual landscape of emotion? I've had this idea before, but right now I'm reading some typography books and it has brought the idea to mind again. I adore the way the appearance of the … Continue reading An Idea
I’m Officially Catholic Now!
Glory to God! This morning I made my first confession, did my first penance, was confirmed in the Catholic Church, and took First Communion. I was anointed with oil. C came from work to be with me, as did my sponsor. I got a saint! I am now going to try to cultivate my relationship … Continue reading I’m Officially Catholic Now!
Hard Week
I can't write about how hatd the past week has been. I'm grateful we got our power back after about two days. To my knowledge, no lives were lost in Typhoon Sinlaku. But mentally it has been an unmedicated, jagged hellscapes of rigid prongs of anxiety digging into my body, and my will to live … Continue reading Hard Week
Autobiography in Colors
I was 11. I had a neon orange shirt from The Limited Too and dayglo orange shorts from the same trendy tween store, and I paired them together. I was aware this was an unusual fashion choice, but my goal was to inhabit, inbibe, imbue myself with, and commune with the essense of orange and … Continue reading Autobiography in Colors
In the Midst of the Storm
The power has been out for 14 hours. I'm so hot it's ridiculous. One of our fire alarms is periodically beeping because it's malfunctioning. Wind whips so hard through the storm shutters that they bang and whistle. I'm charging my phone on my laptop the best I can. The house is a dark, humid, hot … Continue reading In the Midst of the Storm
C Just Landed!
C just landed at our local airport, and just in time. A typhoon arrives tomorrow. It might be big. I've got a bathtub full of water in case the water lines get cut. I'm going to try to make sure my phone and my ipad, and everything else are charged before the storm hits. We … Continue reading C Just Landed!
Life at Home 