When I was 5 years old, my dream was to go to college. Harvard was my pick, but that was mainly because I couldn’t think of any other colleges. I wanted to get married the day after I graduated, and then have a baby right away. I wanted to be a wife and mom.
Essentially, that’s what I became. I did not go to Harvard. I went to a different college. And my timeline was off. I got married one year after I graduated and had my baby one year, one month, and one day later. But I’m pretty much living the life I dreamed at 5 years old.
Some things didn’t work out as I expected. I thought I would have several children. And that proved to not be feasible. I don’t live where I wanted to live. But I am happily married and the mother of a wonderful girl.
There were parts of my childhood where I wanted to be other things. In second grade, I really wanted to become a doctor, and my uncle gave me a stethoscope for my birthday. In first grade I wanted to be a spy and do human intelligence for the government. Later I wanted to be a writer, a lawyer, and a professor at various times. But I always felt confused because I understood that being a stay at home mother was important and my family wanted me to do that. But they also wanted me to have some big career. I didn’t want to make my kids go to daycare (I had gone to daycare myself for a time and didn’t like it), and I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to be there for my family and also work. Work life balance was an issue for me at a young age. I could foresee the problems that many grown women of my generation would have. We expect women to work like they are not mothers and mother like they don’t have to work. But eventually I learned that the better choice is to stay home.