Last week I wore makeup, as I often do. We were getting our pictures taken. And C did not want to kiss me because he hates the texture and taste of my lipstick. Then he admitted he hates makeup. I always knew he thought it was frivolous, but I didn't know he hated it. Knowing … Continue reading No More Makeup
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Trying to Recover Me
Tuesday and Wednesday I volunteered at the dog shelter. A dog I fell in love with the first day was adopted the second day, which made me happy. I came home exhausted, strangely exhausted, but with the satisfaction of making living, loving little animals' day better. Today I am running on little sleep and have … Continue reading Trying to Recover Me
Careers Are Unnecessary
I have never had a career. I was working when I met my husband, but it was just a retail job. It was very easy to walk away from, and as soon as my husband and I were engaged, with his permission I quit. Careers are overrated. Unlike a husband or children, they don't love … Continue reading Careers Are Unnecessary
Blogging Without a Niche
Sometimes, I wonder if I talk about too much on this blog. I have poetry and art and submission and marriage and literature and photography and family stuff and mental health posts. You could definitely say I don't narrow in on a niche! But my life, like everyone else's, is complex and real. As a … Continue reading Blogging Without a Niche
Losing Control Gives Security
Having my big strong man in charge gives me a tremendous sense of security. I have zero control over my life. And I've had to learn to trust that my husband and God will take care of me. That trust is a feeling of free fall, then of serenity. I can just serenely be. God … Continue reading Losing Control Gives Security
Church, Snow
We were supposed to be welcomed as members into our church today, but I vomited on the way. We were maybe 10 minutes from church when I started spewing and eventually couldn't swallow it down. I feel so bad. They were prepared to welcome us. Since then I have been resting. My dear husband made … Continue reading Church, Snow
I’m a Victorian Housewife
Trad wives are often compared to 50s housewives. That somewhat applies to me. I am very traditional. I wear dresses every day. As much as possible I wear jewelry to clean the house as well. I put my family first. I stayed home with my daughter before she started school. I am still at home … Continue reading I’m a Victorian Housewife
Ambition
I used to be a very ambitious person, but now I don't really have any ambition. This has allowed me to embrace my life as is and enjoy the moment. I'm not always looking over the horizon to the next thing. Peace has become my default mode. I used to want to be published and … Continue reading Ambition
My Husband is Possessive and That’s a Good Thing
Men are wired to be territorial. It's part of masculinity. A strong, masculine man who is interested in you will naturally want to keep you for himself. My husband, for instance, doesn't like for me to wear short skirts or low cut dresses. Yes, he likes to look at me in those things, but he … Continue reading My Husband is Possessive and That’s a Good Thing
Birthday Girl
Today is my 36th birthday. My husband has spoiled me all day. Well, he always spoils me, but today he got me paints and tempera paint sticks and gelatos. Also, he got me a lovely art book. He made me stuffed shells (his stuffed shells are my favorite food) and got me a cake. I … Continue reading Birthday Girl