Ambition

I used to be a very ambitious person, but now I don't really have any ambition. This has allowed me to embrace my life as is and enjoy the moment. I'm not always looking over the horizon to the next thing. Peace has become my default mode. I used to want to be published and … Continue reading Ambition

Quit Doom Scrolling

When you're having a sick day, have some free time, or are in some space of waiting, it can be easy to doom scroll. These phones are addictive! It seems like nowadays the most common thing is to meet people who have no hobbies outside of scrolling instagram or lurking on reddit. No passions. No … Continue reading Quit Doom Scrolling

Obedience, Moving

Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving

Slow and Lovely

Life at home is slow and lovely. I woke up to a cookie from the batch I made yesterday. The sky is gray today, and everything seems to be sleeping. I have been feeling depressed, so I took a nap. Then I had lunch Now I'm cleaning, painting, and doing photography. I need to put … Continue reading Slow and Lovely

Planner Pages

I have started using my digital planner again. It's a homeschooling planner because when I bought it I thought we"d be homeschooling. Next year I might get a faith planner instead. Or I might keep this one for 2025 and use some of the homeschooling stuff for my self directed "MFA." The books I've read … Continue reading Planner Pages

Weird

I've got laundry running. I made cookies. I mopped. I took out the recycling. Homemaking is in full swing here. I plan to scrub my bathtub, sweep, do a general pickup, and dust next. Then, I plan to read and write. Homemaking is my job and my love, but writing poetry is my passion. Followed … Continue reading Weird

Photos

I took these photos the other day. This is my world. I am not happy today. It's a hard day. I have the shower curtain in the washing machine. I made lunch but got too depressed to finish it, which is probably good. I have a bunch of housework I need to do, and very … Continue reading Photos

Beautiful Day

Today is a gorgeous day. Warm air and sunny skies are lifting my spirit. I had a medical test this morning, and afterward I stayed up instead of curling up in bed. I've been cleaning the house, studying Arabic, and listening to linguistics lectures. I am hoping this means I am on an upswing and … Continue reading Beautiful Day