My husband is home again for a few weeks. It's so good to have him back! This week, I should find out whether I have been accepted for ECT. It could go either way. My ekg was great, but my blood work wasn't. I don't know how my chest x ray went. Tomorrow is the … Continue reading Husband, ECT, Friend
Tag: Bipolar Disorder
ECT or TMS
I have a consultation next week for ECT. Yes, that ECT. Electroconvulsive therapy. I hate that it has come to this, but after the disaster in Panama I need to come to terms with the fact I'm not a functional person. So much of my living is impaired by mental illness. The reason I'm still … Continue reading ECT or TMS
Agoraphobia?
I'm back at home now after a terrible trip to Panama. I was on the phone with my health coach today, and she suggested that my experience sounded like agoraphobia. My reactions to cities and other busy places aren't normal. I feel worn out and defeated. The life of travel I dreamed of won't happen. … Continue reading Agoraphobia?
Panama Has Been a Nightmare
I have not done one single activity with the wives. Right now I am supposed to be going to the Presidential Palace to meet the First Lady. I long to go, but my anxiety is too high and my mood too unstable. I have been suicidal most of the trip. Now that the romantic portion … Continue reading Panama Has Been a Nightmare
My Litany of Mostly Crappy Jobs
What jobs have you had? I started babysitting for people other than my parents when I was 11. I put out a flyer on our neighborhood mail boxes advertising myself at $3 an hour. The first family that hired me had a 4 year old daughter and two rambunctious dogs. The girl had a bunk … Continue reading My Litany of Mostly Crappy Jobs
Dieting is So Hard
I like food, especially rich or sweet foods. Because of a botched surgery, I have limited mobility. I can walk, but not far enough to actually take a walk. I am on medication that causes weight gain. In fact, I have been on several meds that caused weight gain. Between these three things, dieting is … Continue reading Dieting is So Hard
Sometimes I Fail
Some days are just hard. Bipolar Disorder takes no vacations. It's full time 365 days a year. Today I have not showered, let alone cleaned the house. I took Angelica to and from school and took care of the dogs. That was about all I could do. I want to be honest about that because … Continue reading Sometimes I Fail
Great Weekend
We had a wonderful weekend. My husband was home Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. On Friday, we drove across town to a coffee shop my husband loves. Then we got lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. Saturday was the best day of the three. We went to a gorgeous historic plantation in a state park. I got … Continue reading Great Weekend
On My Own
My husband had been gone for a couple of days, and I have been on my own. Normally, my father in law comes to help, but since this is a short trip, I didn't want to ask him to come all the way down here. So, I have been toughing it out on my own. … Continue reading On My Own
Catholicism and Contraception
I have been exploring Catholicism for awhile now. I collect rosaries, and some Catholic teachings really appeal to me, so it makes sense to explore. One I get caught up on though, is the Catholic requirement to be "open to life" - to not use any form of contraception, and be willing to have more … Continue reading Catholicism and Contraception
Life at Home 