Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Tag: Bipolar
Instability
The mood swings are killing me, and I get suicidally low. And every time I think things are improving, they go back down. I'm exhausted and struggling to keep up. My nerves are frayed. I do everything from napping to practicing art therapy, and still, I do not feel good. I had a heart ultrasound … Continue reading Instability
Hard Week
This week has been a rollercoaster, not to sound cliche. Life with a mood disorder often is. We finally got some sun this weekend, but we are back to another sheet of slate in the sky. It is draining me. Today I had to go to the doctor for an ekg, and then I treated … Continue reading Hard Week
Break, Etsy
I've been lying low the past couple of days and just trying to feel better. I haven't been on social media much. I've been sleeping a lot. I still got dinner on the table, but I laid down a lot on Thursday and Friday. I have been enjoying family time as well. My husband is … Continue reading Break, Etsy
Bad Day
I want to go back to my old medicine. I am not doing well. I have laundry to do if I don't want things to back up. I have meals to make. I need to clean. But I feel dead. My soul hurts. I need to pray and draw closer to God, but honestly I … Continue reading Bad Day
Moving is Exhausting
It has been a crazy week. There is so much to unpack and put away. I am physically exhausted from all the carrying stuff around and going up and down the stairs all the time. The bad ankle is not loving me right now. This morning, I hired a professional decorator/organizer to help me. My … Continue reading Moving is Exhausting
Sick Day
I have been throwing up a lot since I woke up today. I feel sweaty and weak and tired. At this point I'm just hoping I can keep my medicine down tonight. Yesterday we went to a restaurant we won't have around any more when we move. We grabbed ice cream too. This coming week … Continue reading Sick Day
Dreary, Colorsplash, Homeschooling
Today has been dark and dreary. The weather brought my mood down a lot. I can enjoy an afternoon downpour laced with lightning, but a day so dark from the start that you don't know the sun has risen until well after dawn is another thing. Days like this suck. I adore the Pacific Northwest, … Continue reading Dreary, Colorsplash, Homeschooling
Trying to Get on My Feet
I spent too much time laying down this morning. Mentally I am not great. But I have since gotten back up. I've been cleaning baseboards. To do it, I've been using my orange duster. Honestly the constant bending makes me sore. I want a longer duster that I can stay up right with when I … Continue reading Trying to Get on My Feet
Cleaning Schedule
I am thinking of creating a more solid cleaning schedule. As it stands, I just do things as I can when they need to be done - like picking up before my husband gets home, cooking dinner, or mopping floors. But a schedule might help me keep the house extra clean and inspire me to … Continue reading Cleaning Schedule
Life at Home 