Our visit with my parents last weekend was fantastic. Seeing them warmed my heart. I was runnning on very little sleep, but I still had a good time. Tonight, A is going to spend the night at my sister's house. She's super excited about it! I'm so glad she has her aunt back in her … Continue reading Busy week
Tag: Bipolar
Mania
It's almost 2:30 am and I'm still wide awake. I think I'm going manic. Valentine’s evening was amazing. C and I spent quality, phone free time together. He got me a bunch of wonderful brushes for procreate. I'm super excited to use them! Bipolar is hard. My body is tired and I need sleep, but … Continue reading Mania
Short Update
Regular articles will be back soon. Today's life update is that we took an interesting tour of the Pentagon. Then I got fillings at the dentist. My inlaws seem to be enjoying themselves. Church will be virtual tomorrow because of the snow. I went to the Pentagon in my wheelchair because there's no way I … Continue reading Short Update
Not Well
The tremors and screwed up vision that sent me to the ER last week continue. And my mood is so low. It is very hard to function. I am in bed a lot. Please pray for me. My mom and dad in law arrived last night for a weekend visit. I always look forward to … Continue reading Not Well
Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
I had ECT in 2023, and it devastated me. I lost so much memory, and my brain has not recovered. I have to take notes when I try to learn from lectures or books because I will hardly remember anything. Even then, it's hard to remember. I really have to study hard. People get frustrated … Continue reading Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
Obedience, Moving
Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Instability
The mood swings are killing me, and I get suicidally low. And every time I think things are improving, they go back down. I'm exhausted and struggling to keep up. My nerves are frayed. I do everything from napping to practicing art therapy, and still, I do not feel good. I had a heart ultrasound … Continue reading Instability
Hard Week
This week has been a rollercoaster, not to sound cliche. Life with a mood disorder often is. We finally got some sun this weekend, but we are back to another sheet of slate in the sky. It is draining me. Today I had to go to the doctor for an ekg, and then I treated … Continue reading Hard Week
Break, Etsy
I've been lying low the past couple of days and just trying to feel better. I haven't been on social media much. I've been sleeping a lot. I still got dinner on the table, but I laid down a lot on Thursday and Friday. I have been enjoying family time as well. My husband is … Continue reading Break, Etsy
Bad Day
I want to go back to my old medicine. I am not doing well. I have laundry to do if I don't want things to back up. I have meals to make. I need to clean. But I feel dead. My soul hurts. I need to pray and draw closer to God, but honestly I … Continue reading Bad Day