Tomorrow, Mother's Day weekend begins. A is having a Mother's Day tea at her school tomorrow. I'm nervous. Today, I've been sick, and my mood has been changing. I'm very exhausted. But I don't want to miss the tea, so I will be going (unless she's sick in the morning). Speaking of feeling bad, A … Continue reading Tea, Digital Art, New Dish
Tag: anxiety
Sweet 16
L is 16 today! We got her a beautiful cake and a gift card to a makeup store. Tonight we'll take her out to dinner. Easter yesterday was lovely. We went to church and stayed for lunch with the congregation after the service. After dark, we went out in the yard and played with the … Continue reading Sweet 16
What I Like and Dislike About Therapy
Today, I saw a really arrogant post from a therapist telling other therapists that they can charge two hundred and fifty dollars an hour, and she was offering guides on how to make that much or more. People, firefighters, who will run into a burning building for you, don't make $250 an hour. You listen … Continue reading What I Like and Dislike About Therapy
Back
Our trip is over. We were supposed to fly home last night, but our flight was canceled. So we went from having a direct flight at a reasonable time to getting up at 3:45 and getting stuck in a long layover. But all that matters is we're home safely now. I'm eager to get back … Continue reading Back
Enjoying New England
We're up in New England. I'm from up here, and it's nice to come back where I came from. The water, the history, the rocky granite landscape that formed me down to my bones - it's nice to be back at the source even if I prefer Colorado or Florida. We got here last Sunday, … Continue reading Enjoying New England
Not Well
The tremors and screwed up vision that sent me to the ER last week continue. And my mood is so low. It is very hard to function. I am in bed a lot. Please pray for me. My mom and dad in law arrived last night for a weekend visit. I always look forward to … Continue reading Not Well
Doom Scrolling/Food
I've decided my social media habits need a major overhaul. Scrolling distracts me from housework. It also distracts me from reading books, which are much better for my mind than posts and memes. I don't want to get rid of my Facebook or Instagram. They're great for connecting with people, and one of my Instagrams … Continue reading Doom Scrolling/Food
Small Updates
I'm working on a Christmas poem to share with my church this Sunday. I initially bowed out of contributing one because I'm anxious, and honestly, I don't love public speaking like I used to. I've gotten quieter. But the pastor's wife has kindly offered that they could print it in the program or someone else … Continue reading Small Updates
Obedience, Moving
Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Instability
The mood swings are killing me, and I get suicidally low. And every time I think things are improving, they go back down. I'm exhausted and struggling to keep up. My nerves are frayed. I do everything from napping to practicing art therapy, and still, I do not feel good. I had a heart ultrasound … Continue reading Instability
Life at Home 