The tremors and screwed up vision that sent me to the ER last week continue. And my mood is so low. It is very hard to function. I am in bed a lot. Please pray for me. My mom and dad in law arrived last night for a weekend visit. I always look forward to … Continue reading Not Well
Category: Bipolar
Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
I had ECT in 2023, and it devastated me. I lost so much memory, and my brain has not recovered. I have to take notes when I try to learn from lectures or books because I will hardly remember anything. Even then, it's hard to remember. I really have to study hard. People get frustrated … Continue reading Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
Obedience, Moving
Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Beautiful Day
Today is a gorgeous day. Warm air and sunny skies are lifting my spirit. I had a medical test this morning, and afterward I stayed up instead of curling up in bed. I've been cleaning the house, studying Arabic, and listening to linguistics lectures. I am hoping this means I am on an upswing and … Continue reading Beautiful Day
Instability
The mood swings are killing me, and I get suicidally low. And every time I think things are improving, they go back down. I'm exhausted and struggling to keep up. My nerves are frayed. I do everything from napping to practicing art therapy, and still, I do not feel good. I had a heart ultrasound … Continue reading Instability
Hard Week
This week has been a rollercoaster, not to sound cliche. Life with a mood disorder often is. We finally got some sun this weekend, but we are back to another sheet of slate in the sky. It is draining me. Today I had to go to the doctor for an ekg, and then I treated … Continue reading Hard Week
Wonderful Weekend
The girls weekend with L was wonderful! We had a horror movie marathon! We also ate at a couple of good restaurants and went to a carousel. We had hoped to do the pool, but found out that this particular hotel didn't have one. Oh well. We had an amazing time nonetheless! Now I'm back … Continue reading Wonderful Weekend
Weekend
I am so excited about this weekend! My friend L, my daughter A, and I will be hanging out! We are getting a hotel room. We'll be going to the pool and out to eat and maybe shopping. L is A's godmother, which is why she's coming along. A loves L. That and the fact … Continue reading Weekend
Break, Etsy
I've been lying low the past couple of days and just trying to feel better. I haven't been on social media much. I've been sleeping a lot. I still got dinner on the table, but I laid down a lot on Thursday and Friday. I have been enjoying family time as well. My husband is … Continue reading Break, Etsy
Bad Day
I want to go back to my old medicine. I am not doing well. I have laundry to do if I don't want things to back up. I have meals to make. I need to clean. But I feel dead. My soul hurts. I need to pray and draw closer to God, but honestly I … Continue reading Bad Day
Life at Home 