Today was exhausting because of my medicine again. I struggled to wake up and ended up sleeping most of the afternoon when I laid down for a nap. Now I'm behind on housework and have to catch up tomorrow. Same with laundry. To that end, I am cutting that medicine in half to see if … Continue reading Exhaustion
Category: Bipolar
Microscope, Quirks, Hypomania
My microscope arrived and C set it up for me! It is such a sweet gift. It comes with sample slides and a digital camera function. I adore it. My husband has always embraced my weirdness, and I love it. We appreciate one another's quirks. So when I start dying tin foil or asking to … Continue reading Microscope, Quirks, Hypomania
Wild Moods
I seem to be sliding into mania. The good news is that I am writing and it feels so good. The bad news is I could not fall asleep last night because of the sensation of bugs on my skin. I stayed home from OCIA, but I am still studying and doing homework and will … Continue reading Wild Moods
My Poetry Comes in Fits and Starts
I have been doing poorly. My bandwidth is low. Tonight, after reading a little for inspiration, I wrote a few poems. I'm not sure I'm happy with them or that they'll get to the point where I am happy with them. But just writing for a few minutes had to be good for me. Physically, … Continue reading My Poetry Comes in Fits and Starts
Trying to Recover Me
Tuesday and Wednesday I volunteered at the dog shelter. A dog I fell in love with the first day was adopted the second day, which made me happy. I came home exhausted, strangely exhausted, but with the satisfaction of making living, loving little animals' day better. Today I am running on little sleep and have … Continue reading Trying to Recover Me
What I Like and Dislike About Therapy
Today, I saw a really arrogant post from a therapist telling other therapists that they can charge two hundred and fifty dollars an hour, and she was offering guides on how to make that much or more. People, firefighters, who will run into a burning building for you, don't make $250 an hour. You listen … Continue reading What I Like and Dislike About Therapy
Enjoying New England
We're up in New England. I'm from up here, and it's nice to come back where I came from. The water, the history, the rocky granite landscape that formed me down to my bones - it's nice to be back at the source even if I prefer Colorado or Florida. We got here last Sunday, … Continue reading Enjoying New England
Mania
It's almost 2:30 am and I'm still wide awake. I think I'm going manic. Valentine’s evening was amazing. C and I spent quality, phone free time together. He got me a bunch of wonderful brushes for procreate. I'm super excited to use them! Bipolar is hard. My body is tired and I need sleep, but … Continue reading Mania
Not Well
The tremors and screwed up vision that sent me to the ER last week continue. And my mood is so low. It is very hard to function. I am in bed a lot. Please pray for me. My mom and dad in law arrived last night for a weekend visit. I always look forward to … Continue reading Not Well
Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
I had ECT in 2023, and it devastated me. I lost so much memory, and my brain has not recovered. I have to take notes when I try to learn from lectures or books because I will hardly remember anything. Even then, it's hard to remember. I really have to study hard. People get frustrated … Continue reading Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
Life at Home 