I used to be a very ambitious person, but now I don't really have any ambition. This has allowed me to embrace my life as is and enjoy the moment. I'm not always looking over the horizon to the next thing. Peace has become my default mode. I used to want to be published and … Continue reading Ambition
Author: Lisa Marie
TikTok Ruins Minds
On my soapbox. I'm sick of Tiktok and what it's doing to us as Americans and the human race more broadly. It's destroying intellect and attention spans. It keeps people divided and fills their minds with trash. It keeps them locked in echo chambers.As a poet, I follow a lot of indie authors. I really … Continue reading TikTok Ruins Minds
Dream
I woke up at 3 am with a headache and nausea. After drinking a lot and taking headache medicine I was able to get back to sleep. Then I woke up half an hour early from a dream. In the dream, I used tubes of watercolor on tissue paper to make something layered and beautiful. … Continue reading Dream
Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
I had ECT in 2023, and it devastated me. I lost so much memory, and my brain has not recovered. I have to take notes when I try to learn from lectures or books because I will hardly remember anything. Even then, it's hard to remember. I really have to study hard. People get frustrated … Continue reading Scrapbooking and Journaling After ECT
Quit Doom Scrolling
When you're having a sick day, have some free time, or are in some space of waiting, it can be easy to doom scroll. These phones are addictive! It seems like nowadays the most common thing is to meet people who have no hobbies outside of scrolling instagram or lurking on reddit. No passions. No … Continue reading Quit Doom Scrolling
My Husband is Possessive and That’s a Good Thing
Men are wired to be territorial. It's part of masculinity. A strong, masculine man who is interested in you will naturally want to keep you for himself. My husband, for instance, doesn't like for me to wear short skirts or low cut dresses. Yes, he likes to look at me in those things, but he … Continue reading My Husband is Possessive and That’s a Good Thing
Thanksgiving
Our Thanksgiving has been wonderful. It was L's first Thanksgiving, and it was fun to share the day with her. C made an absolute feast for us, outdoing himself as always. Then, after we ate, C and A took naps while L and I painted. Now I'm reading a beautiful art book I got for … Continue reading Thanksgiving
Obedience, Moving
Obeying my husband is always necessary, and as usual, I know what he says is likely for my own good. I don't agree, but I'm being petulant, and he's probably right. I want to go off all my Bipolar medicine to help me lose weight and trigger hypomania (not mania). My husband insists that I … Continue reading Obedience, Moving
Birthday Girl
Today is my 36th birthday. My husband has spoiled me all day. Well, he always spoils me, but today he got me paints and tempera paint sticks and gelatos. Also, he got me a lovely art book. He made me stuffed shells (his stuffed shells are my favorite food) and got me a cake. I … Continue reading Birthday Girl
Wet Day
I am inside today, not exactly enjoying the weather. The snow flurries have been lovely, but nothing is sticking, so it's really just a wet, cold day. I am not well today. It's been a long week. I just wanted to share some abstract photos of light that I took this afternoon! I love light … Continue reading Wet Day
Life at Home 