I have so much laundry to do today! For a while, the washing machine quit working after the power flickered, which slowed me down. But I’m determined to get another load done, maybe two, before my husband gets home.
Everything is wet and gray. I can’t wait to move. I am so ready to be someplace new.
I’ve fallen off the path for my learning. I haven’t been writing enough or painting enough. Starting tomorrow, I am going to change that. The problem has been low mood. It leaves me with little energy. What energy I do have is used to stay alive, keep going, and clean. The problem is honestly the temptation to get in bed. I cook, then I lay down. I clean, then I lay down. I take trash out, then I lay down. You get the idea. Depression and anxiety are so strong that I feel exhausted just dealing with them.
Next week is my last chance to paint before the move. After that, I will not have my acrylics, inks, or other materials. I hope to bring the watercolors I use in my bible, but beyond that, I won’t have much. At least for a few weeks. Possibly for a few months. I will have to focus on photography, journaling, and digital art during that time. Luckily I have Procreate, and my husband spoiled me with brushes.
So new goals, or rather a rededication to some old ones. This is my list updated for depression and exhaustion. It’s simplified but will get me started.
- Make art daily. It can be in acrylic or watercolor or soft pastel. It can be digital or mixed media. But I must make something.
- Read daily. Focus on poetry, nonfiction, scifi, and horror.
- Write daily, even if it sucks. Depression saps my creativity at times, but I need to turn out something just to keep the mental gears greased.
- Learn something daily. Watch a lecture. Listen to a podcast. Read a nonfiction book and take notes.
- Record my progress and my life with digital and paper diaries.
Life at Home 