I Feel Fragile

In the fictionalized biography of Elizabeth Winthrope titled “The Winthrope Woman,” Elizabeth is speaking with her sister, Martha. Her sister tells her that she (Martha) is “cobweb that tears at a touch.”

I feel that way sometimes. It feels like I break so easily. I cried earlier today because of an upcoming move. I’m in my 30s crying over nothing.

Under stress, I fall to pieces. In loud, crowded spaces, I feel like butter spread over too much bread. My feelings are sensitive. I get sick at the drop of a hat.

Sometimes I just feel…delicate, for want of another word. I was so much tougher when I was a kid. But it’s like I was tough for so long that I frayed and broke. I couldn’t put myself back together the same way I was.

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