Public Again

A few days ago, I made my blog private. I’ve since changed it back. I have this internal battle because, on one hand, I love blogging about my life, but on the other hand, I’m a private person

I just felt unsafe and exposed, so I made the page private. But I’m feeling better now. Honestly, sometimes it feels good to retreat into my little shell.

Life updates. We have a new family member coming in August. No, I am not pregnant.  But I will soon have two kids in the house! This is going to be a major change. We are hosting an exchange student. We’re very excited. We have video called with her and she is so sweet. I look forward to opening my heart to another child, and my daughter looks forward to experiencing life with a sister. We want to take her to so many cool places. We hope she has fun.

My little fish, Addie, jumps up out of the water to kiss my finger. She’s a very active little fish. I definitely picked the right one. Sometimes, when I play with her, the dogs get jealous. It’s cute.

I am going to see my friend L soon! We are getting a hotel room and spending the day at the pool or shopping. We’re so excited. My friend L is my daughter’s godmother, so I’m bringing my daughter along. She’s looking forward to it too. Just a nice weekend of girl time!

It will be hard to be away from my husband for the night (he is dropping us off, though), but he says he has admin work he needs to do anyway. He’ll get that done, and we’ll have family time when we get back. But L and I are going to stay up late, which I normally am not supposed to do. I’m ecstatic!

I’ve started writing flash nonfiction. It’s hard not to turn everything into a poem, but I’m working on that. I might include some of it in the little book I’m making. So far I have mostly written memoir flash, but I’d like to do science writing as well. In the end, I’ll see what my editor and my beta readers say. So far, my book isn’t exactly a book. It’s a mix of poems, photos, stream of consciousness, and now flash nonfiction. How to order things is an issue that I’m struggling with. It definitely isn’t ready to be put out yet, and honestly, I don’t want to stress out about that. I am doing this for fun. It would just feel good to hold my little book in my hand and see my writing in print again. I’m not focused on marketing or sales. If it sells – great. If it doesn’t – well, I don’t need to make a living, so I don’t really care. I just want to enjoy myself.