Angelica has started school, so I am settling in to long days at home alone. There’s plenty to do, but time to rest too.
Being at home when your kids go to school is a nice break. I miss homeschooling and having her with me all day, but this is a lot less stress. Yesterday I napped from about 8 am to almost 2 pm because the night before last I was completely unable to sleep and I’m still playing catch up from that. Normally I would never sleep all day. But after years of being a stay at home mom to a little one it is nice to have the freedom to sleep. The dogs cuddle me, and I just drift off.
Still, I want to set goals for my time.
1. Clean more. I hire help with cleaning to make sure everything gets professionally scrubbed down on a regular basis, but I still have cleaning to do in between.
2. Embroider. I love my rainbow collection of threads and my adorable little hoops.
3. Blog more. On this blog and other blogs.
4. Diary keeping. I want to start keeping a handmade diary. I have many beautiful journals to choose from.
5. Listen to more music. Broaden my horizons.
6. Paint and collage more.
7. Study scripture more, and get back in to Lectio Divina.
8. Keep on top of laundry without Craig pitching in. I love how helpful Craig is, but now that summer is over I’d like there to be less for him to do.
Going back to work isn’t really an option. I don’t want to lose summers with Angelica, her school day ends early and a lot of what I made would just go towards paying for after school care. Plus I want Angelica to be able to come home from school and play with her friends, and I also like to pick her up and hear all about her day. Beyond that, I still have a largely unregulated mood disorder that would make holding down employment difficult. I say all this to explain why I don’t go back to work, but in reality I don’t owe anyone that explanation. It’s between me and my husband, and it’s personal. Besides, I love being at home. It’s just that loneliness kills me. I used to not be that way, but having Craig at home for a year and a half changed me. Now I need to get back to being more independent.
How do I find that inner joy that comes with independence, so that I don’t just spend the day missing my husband and daughter?
Life at Home 